Thursday, 31 December 2009

The beginning of the end - the end of the beginning

I've promised myself for some time that I would do this. I have before when recording our holiday adventures for the kids to read later on, but a day-to-day one has eluded me. Why?

It's not like I don't have thoughts whirling round in my head (well who doesn't) but time always seems to have got the better of me. The holiday ones were easy - the time was there in plentiful amounts to be able to sit and chill and describe the events of the previous day. Being at home is a very different story. When isn't there something else to do, take care of, cook, clean, work, relax?

There are just so many things I want to do. I love movies and music (listening and playing guitar/drums), and scribbling my thoughts is a fine way to unwind, but how can I fit all them in and the odd video game, cooking spree,
vegging out in front of the telly?

Discipline? To be brutally honesy, I'm crap at self-discipline. It took me almost 4 months to put the video together from our summer holiday to France (it premiered this morning). There's endless songs and verses that I've penned that are still waiting the chords to turn them in to something more than words on a piece of paper. If I can't do that, how can I do this?

Is it coincidence that it's New Year's Eve, the day when resolutions are made for the year ahead? Funnily enough, yes. I don't do resolutions. If it takes the start of a new year for me to look at my failings and want to change them, then there's something wrong with this picture.

So I'm back at question of why? And I don't have an answer for you but more questions. If I can't answer why this has eluded me, how am I going to fare in actually doing? And again, I don't have an answer for you, or for me. But do you really need an answer? Do I? May be it's a case of not wondering how I'm gonna do it, but just actually getting on with it and doing it.

Time, or lackthereof, will tell.

Good luck in twenty-ten

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